It has been awhile since I have updated, the main reason being that I was in Las Vegas for the last month. The time spent there was a good reminder for me not to lose sight of who I am. I realized that I gave up some aspects of myself when I moved to Korea and my perception of who I needed to be had gone askew.
I worried so much about weight gain and complained quite a bit. Even though I did not feel so out of place in America as I do in Korea, I still have some problems when it comes to self image.
Anyways, it was nice to spend time with everyone. I overestimated the time that I had back at home because five weeks is nowhere near enough time. When I was at home, I felt homesick for Korea and now that I am back, I miss Las Vegas. To live on my own while close enough to those I love would probably be the best situation for me. I know that I could set up a life in Las Vegas with no problems, but the world is such an enticing place.
The apartment, finally, feels like home with some more family photos and a few embellishments here and there. When I get my camera back I will put up some pictures. I am sure everyone will see it when we video chat anyways.
I will write more when I have something worth writing about. This week of quarantine has been a blessing; I needed time to unwind before going back to school.
Ok, I lied. In the last month there has been so many minor changes that have been exciting and depressing. Stores here open and close in a matter of no time at all, I have seen big name stores close their doors and more disturbingly I fear that the seamstress that I go to might be closing down her shop. I walked by the store front on my way back from the grocery store and I see that her store looks a bit barren. As always, I had some fruit in my backpack and gave her some, it has become a ritual now. When I go to the store I buy a little extra because she has always been so kind to me; sewing on a button for free, discounting even the most painstaking alterations and getting stuff back to me in a timely fashion. She has held a special place to all of my friends. I am hoping that my suspicions are wrong. On the other hand, the grocery stores have been stocking more western style items. I saw a balsamic vinegarette dressing. I guess that is the only good thing to have happened in the midst of my fears.
